I have had many changes in my life over the past few weeks. To write them all down on paper would probably be rather therapeutic but will have to wait if I ever summon up the patience to type them. I'm in a total state of flux right now. No longer living in an independent apartment and no longer living with anybody. Both are things I hadn't foreseen in my future and neither were planned for. At some point in my life I would like to become the type of person who easily accepts change- even embrace it the moment it is happening. I, on the other hand, do not embrace change. If I have a "plan" in my future or even some remote concept of what my future is going to look like- then I DO NOT like when that is changed. Unless, of course, it is changed by me on my own accord and for my own reasons.
I have come to terms with the current changes mostly because I have no other option. Part of me is sick and tired of just putting up with it and part of me just doesn't know how to go about it any other way. I am looking at the glass empty- not even any water in it to say it's half empty. Not knowing what to do and not having any motivation to do it are battles that I'm facing at the moment.
Can someone give me some fire to light this sense of something inside me?
