I have had many changes in my life over the past few weeks. To write them all down on paper would probably be rather therapeutic but will have to wait if I ever summon up the patience to type them. I'm in a total state of flux right now. No longer living in an independent apartment and no longer living with anybody. Both are things I hadn't foreseen in my future and neither were planned for. At some point in my life I would like to become the type of person who easily accepts change- even embrace it the moment it is happening. I, on the other hand, do not embrace change. If I have a "plan" in my future or even some remote concept of what my future is going to look like- then I DO NOT like when that is changed. Unless, of course, it is changed by me on my own accord and for my own reasons.
I have come to terms with the current changes mostly because I have no other option. Part of me is sick and tired of just putting up with it and part of me just doesn't know how to go about it any other way. I am looking at the glass empty- not even any water in it to say it's half empty. Not knowing what to do and not having any motivation to do it are battles that I'm facing at the moment.
Can someone give me some fire to light this sense of something inside me?
2 comments:
I believe the best way to allieviate your antsyness is to play darts with your mother and Farkle with your family! I know that makes ME smile! :)
You may not know me; you may not care. I came to your blog whilist searching on Google.
Reading your post you seem lost confused and distraught by life in general.
A lot of people will tell you to go outside, play tennis, swim, ice-skate but all these are distractions not solutions.
Find someone you can talk to on daily basis -- grow similar interests, read the same books, watch the same TV, enjoy the same movies and as you do all these things you grow together and growth is change. And like the way we fight polio with vaccine which has polio -- what you are doing is fighting bad change with good change.
And that is the solution.
If you need someone to talk to drop me an email: Jaypost2@gmail.com and we can talk about your life and you can hear about mine.
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